Ryan came back from Berkeley on Saturday and they got an apartment. Let me tell you.. this whole experiance is so bittersweet. I want to be so happy and excited for him... but at the same time I'm scared. His move in date is August 14th.. my birthday is August 16th... he starts school on the 25th our anniversary is the 24th. Can timing be any worse...LOL. Gosh. So my first few weeks I can tell are going to be the hardest. And at the same time... I want to spend time with him... but I don't get the vibe back from him. So it kind of sucks really. And Rachel, I know you went through this with Andy... I hope you have some good advice...LOL.
Last night I don't know if I was dreaming about something or not.. but I woke up around 3am and instantly started thinking about Ryan leaving... I got up went to the bathroom... and cuddled up next to him in bed... and cried queitly. I haven't even told him that's why I cuddled with him last night. It's so hard.. and I still have 5 weeks to go...LOL. I need Dr. Phil...LOL LOL
(rach be happy... second one :D yay)
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It's so true that when you are in the situation, it seems like the most difficult thing in the world. But looking back, that time apart really was a blessing. It put things in a new perspective and helped to clarify some things for us both. It helped us know what was important to each of us and it made us stronger individuals which in turn makes your relationship stronger. I am a firm believer that to have a good relationship, or better yet marriage, you need to be a strong individual. There are times when your partner needs you to carry the burdens and you can't do it on your own, if you aren't already your own person. It only does a disservice to your partner if you aren't strong on our own.
You guys will be better for this and really, time will fly. I can barely remember those years apart (total of four I think) because like everything else, this too shall pass. So take advantage of the positive things right now. Take advantage of the excitement of something new and challenging and take advantage of your freedom to discover more about you. Because once you settle and begin having a family, that's the most difficult thing to do.
You'll get through it, no worries. Just know there's a reason for it and in the bigger picture, this time period is a blink of an eye!!!
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